This is one of those posts that's easy to write, but so hard to publish! Because so many people I know in real life read this blog, it can be difficult to be so open and honest on here. It's a very vulnerable feeling, but I'm hoping that writing about this will hold me accountable.
I've always considered myself lucky to have a very good metabolism. I have a major affinity for junk food and have always allowed myself to enjoy the delicious foods in life. I was able to keep my weight and size down without even having to exercise! Pure bliss! But, after I graduated college, I noticed my metabolism was starting to slow down. When I got my first job at the law firm, I began eating at the food court every day (hello, Moe's!) and the extra pounds appeared in no time. Then we moved to California, and a few more pounds joined in! Before I knew it, I had gained 15 pounds in the 2 years since our wedding (I know that's not a huge number but I'm 5'4 so it's definitely noticeable)
Since adding on the extra weight, I've avoided certain things. I feel uncomfortable in shorts and bathing suits, so I avoid the pool and beach at all costs. And when you live in beautiful sunny California, these are places you should enjoy every weekend! This is what made me want to change- to put in the effort and actually stick with it this time. I'm tired of being so self-conscious.
I'm never going to cut out certain foods for good. I absolutely believe in moderation, and I think by completely depriving yourself of something you love, well, it'll only make you want it more. So I've begun to eat healthier during the week and then splurge a little on the weekends.
Today was my first day of boot camp. And now I'm on the couch, unable to move. But I did it! I was SO nervous going into it, but they were all incredibly nice. When I told them it was basically my first day of seriously working out (ever), I could see the fear for me on their faces! It was absolutely the hardest thing I've ever physically done, but I'm proud to say that I stayed through the whole thing! The instructor told me that most first-timers quit before it's over (which I seriously considered doing!) I definitely had to stop at times and catch my breath, but at least I finished! However, I despise burpees.
(I found a deal on Groupon for 6 weeks of unlimited classes for $45! Isn't that incredible!? If you live in SoCal and are interested, email me and I'll let you know the details! The Groupon ends Thursday)
So, now that y'all know my insecurities and personal feelings (ahhh!), I'm hoping that writing about it will keep me accountable and maybe motivate others. For more inspiration, head over to Lindsey's blog. She posted about this same issue a few days ago and has really encouraged me to write about it, too! If you are going through the same thing, let me know and we can encourage each other! If I can do this, anyone can :)