Thank you for all of the sweet birthday wishes! Yesterday was great. Full of fun, family, and cake :-)
Speaking of cake, I am out. of. control. I always gain a little weight between November and March (Thanksgiving, Christmas, Valentine's Day, my birthday) but something is different this year. I think my body is realizing I'm an adult now and my metabolism is slowing down. Or maybe it's that I eat Moe's just about everyday for lunch now that I have this food court right below my office. Whichever. I haven't gained a lot, maybe 5-8 pounds, but I can feel it and it doesn't feel good!
I want to eat (a little) better, but mostly I know I need to have some kind of exercise in my schedule. I loathe exercising, but if I want to continue eating stuff I like, I know I have to start. Every so often, I get motivated to do this, and it lasts for oh, about 3 hours. Maybe even a day. So I'm hoping that if I say this out loud, for all of you to hear, then maybe that will hold me accountable. (By the way, this is not fun to admit out loud. Being this vulnerable for anyone to read is a little scary!)
(Getting even more uncomfortable to talk about....) I realized that I need to change something while we were on vacation in Arizona. I hate wearing shorts, and don't even get me started on bathing suits. Ugh. I just feel so self-conscious and uncomfortable. This realization was sad because I know it takes a bigger toll on me than I realize. I avoid doing things and wearing things just because I am too lazy to get my butt up and work out.
I love food, and I especially love food that is bad for you. I'm not willing to give that up, so I must give up laziness. So, my goal is to not just lose weight, but to feel good about myself. I'm not so concerned with the pounds, but more so my perception of myself. I know what I need to work on, and I'm hoping to feel good by this summer so I can join Doug at the pool and not hide under a towel. I know he would appreciate that!
So, my first attempt at this will be to do workout videos my co-worker told me about that they have for free On Demand. They are 10 minutes...that's definitely do-able! I once tried a Jillian Michaels DVD and just about died. Sadly, Doug was there to witness it. And I hate gyms, so there's no way that's happening. I'll keep y'all posted on my progress, and if I can keep up the motivation! If you feel so led to join me in this little goal, let me know and maybe we can keep each other accountable.