*This post is very different from how I usually write....just to warn you.*
I need to vent. My family has been through so much crap the past couple of years medical wise, and I just found out there's been another diagnosis. My sweet, beautiful, loving Mamaw just found out that she has breast cancer. We don't know any specifics yet...she goes in tomorrow to determine the treatment plan.
I'll be honest, when my mom told me today, my first reaction was anger. First my mom, now Mamaw? My two favorite women in the whole world are having to deal with this awful illness...and it just makes me angry. They don't deserve this. It's terrifying and I just wish our family would get a little break from all of this.
And to make it even worse, I now live across the country from them. I think I've handled the distance pretty well so far (better than I expected), considering this is my first time living outside of Georgia, but when I found out this news, all I wanted to do was to be at home. I want to be at all of those appointments with them. I want to go to Sunday brunch with Mamaw and Pawpaw every week like we always have. I should be there.
I know I am supposed to be here in California, supporting my husband and starting this new part of our lives, and I'm happy to be here most of the time....but it's times like these where I just ache to be in Atlanta. It's where my heart is.