Monday, September 19

Getting Real

*This post is very different from how I usually write....just to warn you.*

I need to vent. My family has been through so much crap the past couple of years medical wise, and I just found out there's been another diagnosis. My sweet, beautiful, loving Mamaw just found out that she has breast cancer. We don't know any specifics yet...she goes in tomorrow to determine the treatment plan. 

I'll be honest, when my mom told me today, my first reaction was anger. First my mom, now Mamaw? My two favorite women in the whole world are having to deal with this awful illness...and it just makes me angry. They don't deserve this. It's terrifying and I just wish our family would get a little break from all of this.

And to make it even worse, I now live across the country from them. I think I've handled the distance pretty well so far (better than I expected), considering this is my first time living outside of Georgia, but when I found out this news, all I wanted to do was to be at home. I want to be at all of those appointments with them. I want to go to Sunday brunch with Mamaw and Pawpaw every week like we always have. I should be there.

I know I am supposed to be here in California, supporting my husband and starting this new part of our lives, and I'm happy to be here most of the time....but it's times like these where I just ache to be in Atlanta. It's where my heart is.


22 comments:

J and A said... Best Blogger Tips

I hate cancer. I hear your anger. I am so sorry to hear about you mamaw. Hugs to you.

Sarah @ Simply Sarah said... Best Blogger Tips

I am so sorry you are going through all of this. My thoughts go out to you and your family.

meghan said... Best Blogger Tips

I'm so sorry, Julie. I hate that your family is going through all of this and also that you're across the country. You'll be in my thoughts.

Laura said... Best Blogger Tips

I'm so sorry to hear that! I love your Mamaw:) she and your mom are in my prayers!

Mae said... Best Blogger Tips

So sorry to hear about this! My grandmother had breast cancer too. She is now nearing 15 years in remission. I'll be keeping you and your family in my thoughts and prayers!

Lindsay said... Best Blogger Tips

I'm so sorry to hear about your grandmother. I know how you feel living across the country from your family. I also live very far away from mine and it is SO hard sometimes. My grandmother passed away a few weeks ago and that was the worst for me. I'll be praying for you guys.

Michelle said... Best Blogger Tips

I'm so sorry to hear about this! I'm definitely keeping you, your mamaw, and family in my prayers! Sending positive thoughts your way! xoxo

Just Me said... Best Blogger Tips

Praying for all of you! My family is all in Texas, so I feel your pain on the distance thing. Ummm, cancer, don't even get me started!!!! A beast it is.....but with these strong southern women and God, cancer is going down!!! Let me know if I can do anything for you here. I love your sweet family!

Stephanie said... Best Blogger Tips

I'm so sorry to hear that. I can't imagine being far away when such a big thing is going on. Praying for you and your family!

Meghan said... Best Blogger Tips

I am so sorry to hear the news:( Cancer sucks. Sending lots of prayers your way!

Mommyblogger said... Best Blogger Tips

Oh honey, I'm so sorry to hear this. I can't imagine how hard it must be being so far away. Our family has had a downward spiral of sickness lately & it's so difficult to understand and accept. I'm struggling myself. My grandfather just passed of cancer recently. Cancer is a horrible disease, I hate it. I am sending lots of prayers your way & extra prayers for your grandmother. Please keep us posted.

Bay Park Dream said... Best Blogger Tips

I'm really sorry to hear about your grandma. :( I know how difficult it is to be so far from the people you love during times like this.

Sending you and your family lots of positive thoughts and prayers... hope your grandma gets better soon.

Amanda @ New Adventures said... Best Blogger Tips

I am so sorry to hear this! Cancer is such an awful disease that affects way to many people we love. I completely understand how it feels to have your heart in another state with your family. Thinking of you guys and sending prayers your way.

Brittany said... Best Blogger Tips

Julie, my heart is breaking for you. I can't imagine how tough it would be to live so far away from them. I admire how strong you've been about your mom and I'm sure you will be the same with your Mamaw! I'm thinking about you and your whole family!

...and, again, if you EVER need to talk, someone to listen, I'm always here! Usually, at any time of the night. Haha!

Megan said... Best Blogger Tips

Awwww, Julie, I'm so so sorry. : ( This made me tear up. I can't imagine how hard it must be to be so far away. Praying for you and your family!!

Jess - PrettyPhysicist said... Best Blogger Tips

I'm so sorry to hear this. Cancer sucks. About 10 years ago, I lost my Nana and Grampop to cancer a few months apart. Even 10 years later, the pain doesn't go away. My Gram is in remission from breast cancer, so I hope that your Mamaw can do the same! My thoughts are with you, and if you need anyone to talk to or vent to, I'm here for you because I understand what you're going through.

David and Elizabeth said... Best Blogger Tips

I cannot even express how awful i feel for you and your family. You are in my thoughts and prayers.

Shelley @ My Grandma's Pearls said... Best Blogger Tips

Wow...I'm not sure there are any words to express how sorry I am to hear about what you are going through. This year really has not been easy on you. My thoughts are with you and your family as you go through this battle together. You may be far away, but that won't stop you from being the most supportive daughter and granddaughter! And that is the most important thing you can give! Stay strong!

Ruth said... Best Blogger Tips

Oh sweetie! I am so sorry to hear about your grandmother. I am praying for her and the rest of your family to stay strong.

Lesley Anne said... Best Blogger Tips

Julie, it breaks my heart to hear this about your Mamaw! She really is the sweetest lady on earth and I hate to hear she has to go through this. Praying for you and your family! (2 Cor. 4:16-17)

Joelle said... Best Blogger Tips

I'm so sorry that you have to go through this sweetheart. I can't imagine how difficult it must be, but know that you and your family are in my prayers! It's the least I can do.

And I hope you have a wonderful time being with your family. But I can't lie, I'm excited to see you at Meg's SoCal meetup soon!

xoxoxo,
Joelle
www.whereweloveishome.com

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